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So the meat that was my usual Friday was unexpectedly sandwiched by breads of birthday parcels!! - one forcing me to sign for in my pjs at an ungodly 7am, and the other delivered by FedEx mans attempt #2 after uni!
People who say it’s not the gift that matters may have gotten crappy gifts, but on top of saying thanks again for the ridiculously awesome and generous gifts, bigger thanks for thinking of me and putting in effort to mail these over. Cannot tell you how much I appreciate it!
I love you all big time ❤ @mistermeatloaf @shlebimon #auntiesevhasahashtag #keirentoo #momsie&daddy
i just want to smile and be happy.
and if its true, what can I do?
what am i do to, our one path has split.
Not parallel like you said it would be, but an A drive, driven to far corners.
And you’d think, from this distance i should learn, i should have picked up.
well, here is one big one, a slap in the face to turn a greater angle, to walk a greater arc.
News bombarded my senses, and not the way it should be told.
what am i do to? other than be forced to accept it. It a powerful thing, as I have choices, i could collapse and close down and cease my ties.
that wouldnt make you flinch though, am i right? Honestly?
But more powerful is the recognition of the choices i have.
But i dont know which one is right.
how and why and when so many questions. Fluttering around, mocking me, making me dizzy. laughing cruelly.
i dont know what i want… Honestly, im just confused right now…
ironically, thoughts like these have passed my mind. And naively been dismissed.
now, not 1 but 2 have slipped out of my fingers as ive slipped out of your hearts.
i stare blankly at the sentence that drained me white. Expecting myself to have a different reaction, to come to terms, when einstein said that insanity is doing the same things over again and expecting different results.
i, then, must be crazy.
well, this is all so crazy.
Do not let the world make you hard, Do not let the pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
— Kurt Vonnegut